After feeling completely neglected on my birthday by all, things haven't been looking up. And seems like no one is there to help. Really, I don't mean to sound hopeless or shit but I honestly think I should be thrown off the face of the earth, so people can stop hearing me complain, and I will have no further reason to complain. This whole... bs thats been going on has got me second questioning EVERYTHiNG. I mean, ya know, my friends*, my parents (well my mom/family), even my two puppies (the only ones who listen.. maybe cuz they cant tell me to shut the fuck up).. So yeah I'm not so sure of anything anymore (I think that's a song..) and so screw it all. If I have no one, then I'm leaving ona bus to SOMEWHERE out of this hell hole. I hate Georgia. I really want to leave everyone and somehow I don't care who'll be back here, but as long as I get away, it's all good.

- - > Today sucked majorly
[[ The only good thing was toward the end ]]
[[ when we met the guys and Theresa was there ]]
[[ And didn't ditch me.. The only one ]]


This is the worst birthday.. ever.

Was it you who spoke the words that
Things would happen, but not to me
That things were gonna happen naturally
Oh, I'm taking your advice, and
I'm looking on the bright side
And _balancing_ the whole thing.

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Today's my birthday. It's been.. shitty and great. This morning I woke up at the Pachanos' house due to their ignorance to leave me at home like my mom told them to do when we came back from the hospital. Oh yeah, My dad's in the hospital. Got surgery, almost died, the whole drama deal. The day before my birthday, my dad almost dies. Huh. Ironic?  Well the most attention I got today was from people reading the shirt Chrissy made me ("It's My Birthday! WOO!") and they're like "Is it your birthday?" -"Dumb fuck what the hell do you think?!" Yeah. Cept I was happier. Now I'm blah. We're gonna visit my dad at the hospital he'll be there until Tuesday or Wednesday. And then he'll have to stay in bed for about a month. Gotta go. Life is ok. I'm getting my Jason Mraz cd tomorrow. For those who thing it's stupid, I find him to be one of the greatest people ever. Especially since his cd saved my life, when I was ready to die at one point in my life. Thanks Jason Mraz... Later <3

[ Current Attire ] Chicago tshirt ; Soffees & socks
[ What's that Noise ] Dogs are barking.. And JM
[ Minutely Emotion ] So fucking pissed! And a little dreamy..

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Amazing how in one moment you are perfectly happy and you have no complaints (ok, let's be honest, maybe a few.. Ex: School) but the next second you're ready to rip someone's head off because you're so fucking angry! YEAH! That's how I seem to feel now. I won't describe my situation specifically because I don't want to get all personal and say names I might regret in the future, I don't feel like sharing this with anyone right now, I just need time to rant, and just calm myself down.. *Sigh* I need to chill, but not now. Ok, to explain myself (not in specifics), Recently I've been feeling like some kind of backup friend to, oh, I duno, EVERY0NE. There are some names, but that will be overlooked. Anyway, it's near my birthday and I was thinking I'd feel all better about this, but recently I've feel like this problem has grown and maybe I'm becoming more distant or closer to my friends to make me feel this way. Agh. It's so fucking confusing... I don't want to deal with it. To top it off, I need to go in early to fail a math test. I really hate this. =(

At around 1O.0O last night,  April called to ask if I could spend the night. Her, Jackson, and Evan showed up and we dropped Jackson and Evan off and we went back home (Btw- Thanks Jackson for the things) and we talked on the phone with Aaron (AND FREAKED THE SHiT OUTTA HiM! LMA0!) and went to bed around 2.0O AM. Then in the morning, her parents took us to some country place where some crazy lady thought I was April and like attacked me in the bathroom when I was waiting for April and was like "I love you so much. You know that? Your mama is a sweetie and so are you!" I was like "Wtf?!" Lol. Yeah. Then Around 6, Allan and Dad came to April's to pick me up while we were cleaning the car to come back for my Aunt Sandy's "surprise party". Gay if you ask me. And tomorrow morning I have to go in early for Math to retake a test. Fuuuuuuuuuck. <3 Later Hun *'

[ Current Attire ] Dance t-shirt ; Jeans ; Slippers!
[ What's that noise? ] Matchbook Romance
[ Minutely Emotion ] Hungry.. Is that an emotion?

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Appealing entry title now isn't it? Yes, it's oh so true, I fell on my ass while ice skating with Debs, Elizabeth, and Jessi! We went around 1 and skated our butts off 'til around 4. Deborah fell 4 times though! And I fell twice. Jessi fell like 3 times, and Elizabeth triumphed and didn't fall once! Amazing. And we pegged little children with our "ice/snowballs" that we made from guess what.. ice! Lol. Then Jessi went out, so me, Lizabee (Elizabeth for the people who don't catch on too quickly..) and Debs went to the Dollar Theater ($1!!!.. Heh) and saw Little Black Book. It was something I would see for a dollar (not 8..) and never see it again. That's ok though, it was cute. Then we ran across the street (literally) to the Avenue for a while. Not much else has happened after that. One update: Being single sucks. I want a guy, but I duno if I want a relationship kind of thing. Yeah. Sucks. Oh well, Ta-ta Later <3